feelings

Somehow i feel im always confused by the intentions of others. What i experienced felt unreal hence i decieve/convince myself telling my brain its just a deception. A false one indeed. But when i was on the verge of giving up, not forgetting i've prayed numerous times to God asking for his will and purpose, somehow, things so happened making what i felt feel real... and when i finally convince myself 'ok its real, believe in this one'... now im told by actions its yet another false deception. im confused. really. Which are the sacred msgs from God? Which exactly are his answers to my prayers? Which way shall i seek?